Over Thy Wilt

Humans can overcome many hardships and challenges. Taking my life into account, I can relate to no one. I try to think, and think of someone who might have the same life as me and yet I cannot.
  Physical challenges have always been a part of my life. When I think of the soccer team whose plane crashed in the Alphs during the 70's I can see that their challenge is much like mine. Alothough their pain,grief, despair, and agony was no where compared to mine it related to me. No pain no gain. That's what I try to get my mindset at when I go to the gym. I try and try and it works sometimes. Yet other times I forget and just want to give up.
Giving up is such a failure. To give up on something you want to do try and complete is really sad. Sad for yourself and sad for those who waited till the end. Numbers are infinite and so are the possibilities that one can overcome anything they believe in. When pain is lingering, linger with it. Observed it, do not run. See how it breathes, moves, and reacts to everything good. Pain is gain. You must overcome the truth that pain does not stop at number 10, or 10,000,000,000. It's forever. Shadow the pain, not the gains.

My Love

I wish you can be here to see me cry. To see me so lonely and so hurt. I wish you can see me as the abandoned abused animal from pound. So you can see how I was before you met me. I can't stand to be alone. I can't stand trying so hard only to be ridiculed for trying. I hate how nobody understands how bad it hurts. To see the one you love lying to not hurt your feelings. I hate how I cannot see straight anymore. How after I left, I was pushed away yet again. I hate when I was there I was pushed away. I was kept from everybody like some wild dog. I hate how my feelings are always a joke. My feelings are arguments. I missed the days when we would cry together about how much we miss each other. I miss how we can't express how much we miss each other. How feelings have to be suppressed                                                    , in which suppressed feelings also causes people to forget. I am a walking ghost. I feel nothing.I have fought so hard only to be belittled. I had such good intentions, and I am in shock what good has done for me. Doing good makes you feel bad. Doing bad makes you feel good. I tried so hard to not do bad because I saw what bad can do to people. Nobody remembers the good, only the bad. When good appears it is quickly forgotten. Why be good? Why do good? Why hope for love? Why try? Because you have to believe.

How Bad Can It Hurt?

The feeling of failure, there is nothing like the feeling of failure.
You want something in life, you have a natural instinct to give it all.
You feel that natural instinct, you question the motives of your instinct.
You wish for things to be the same, you wish that things never happened.